DETACHMENT

When two things that were together begin separation . I am quick to detach myself from people, I have no valid reason why I do that and I have always been aware that I do that. I do not think that I have ever tried to solve this or really look into the issue, at least not until today. I start to remove myself because soon enough the person usually begins to annoy me or just begins to be all up in my space then I cannot deal with it and I am forced to ghost you. I am quick to use my health and family as cover up, my busy schedule which does not totally exist is added as an alibi. Some say it is a sign a depression, some say it is being introvert. You know how everything is termed these days, I just say I do not like people that much. Except its my own people and I have never had my own person in this life asides my father. People I have tried to make my ‘person’, people that have said that they wanted to be my ‘person’ have failed me in so many ways and so many times. I just had my last trial at giving humans a chance. I just want to stack up a little bit of cash and end up in either of my parent’s couch to just eat and do other stuff that are not bad but would not have been my first choice. This is one of those days that I just want to draw the curtains. Taking deep breathes, long sighs, getting out of bed very ate, not doing chores in other to have something to do later on so I do not be bored to death has become the new unhealthy routine that I would really love to come out from.