THE GIRL AND HER MYSTERY MAN

A young girl shielded from the world by her parents. With her was her two best friends, her diary made of old cardboards held together by threads just like DIY tutorials and her doll made of wood with the head stuffed with foam from maybe an old pillow. “Gbemi !” She exclaimed [for that was her doll’s name] as she made her way out of her home through the little bush behind the house down to that spooky building where unused household items were kept. She looked around with curiosity, for some odd reason felt something lurking in the shadows and it did not smell like good that’s for certain. She turned and saw this figure standing at the doorway - “you finally got the courage to come see me, I have waited since forever “. The girl replied “Why do you visit my dreams, why do you terrify me, why would you not let me be, I do not like the way you make me feel” The figure apologized and promised to do better, that was not his intention....he only needed a bit of her attention. The girl raised a brow, the figure proceeded - “As you grow older you would understand as long as you stay with me, if you run from me you would not have a easy ride, embrace me, let us be the best of friends and I would never leave your side, you may call me Lamar...you are hereby my Kabiyesi and I your loyal servant” Lamar was locked in that store house for eternity, through the day into night falls, he came out from the shadows and made himself look like a teenage boy who would have most likely passed as another elder brother of hers. Suddenly the young girl was no more afraid and now had a more realistic friend than just any two objects. She would take her doll and her diary down to Lamar, he would tell her stories and she would write them down hoping that someday someone would see it and believe in [magic]. Lamar told the young girl that she was a goddess of a kingdom faraway in the galaxies, somewhere close to the sun, for she was an offspring of the sun - known as “Sun the Saccharine”, that he was there to prepare her for the [revival] when the earthly skies will open, she will ascend and then take on her role to rule as the only goddess to be in the council of elders of the skies. Her family thought she was just a quiet kid that enjoyed her own company and had a vivid imagination when they read her diary, they thought of her to make a good writer someday if she does not become a [Doctor] nothing to worry about ! Lamar on one of their meetings after months had passed said he wanted them to have [the talk] and she said sheepishly “Okay, soro !” She giggled because her Yoruba was getting quite good thanks to her father. “Well, in our previous lives in our world we were [besties] that fought side by side then the humans tricked you to send me to their world and lock me here, only you have the power to free me..I would teach you how and I would be out then we can go fight them so they do not stop the [revival] Considering she now trusted him, she easily concurred. Soon he was free, they started preparing for a war...he taught her spells and made her to promise not to show or tell anybody yet. He taught her so much that the normal world already perceived what a bright child she was, anyone who saw her was always fascinated by her intelligence for someone so young but the world did not know what was coming. She was a bit different from the normal kids but she was not all that bothered as long as she had Lamar ! She thrived really well in society and In her secret world with Lamar Soon Lamar was beginning to take too long, she would rebel and fight him. This was now in her early teens and life was coming along really perfectly till she pissed her [oh well] teacher off then he turned his back on her and fought her, she lost her sanity in real life and became mad, a lot of unfortunate incidents happened leading to that and after that. Meanwhile while she was insane, her conscious was transported to another realm where she had to constantly fight him everyday and most times it was not a fight - he dealt with her and beat her real bad. She tried to send signals to the world but they did not understand, they presumed it was just mad person [talk] or her throwing unnecessary tantrums, if only they knew. This now young woman went from finding some mythical being to having to find herself, her way back to reality. She is feeling now that Lamar has more to say than he is letting out because it gets more personal each day, would she ever recover ?

SORRY, I'M LATE

If I eventually be spontaneous, work hard and become all of that - everything that society has programmed us to do, I would probably say stuff like this... I hope you forgive me, forgive my delay, forgive my tantrums and forgive my off days i hope you forgive me, because that was my way to be stable and to elevate my free i hope you forgive me, because I really tried to tell myself, "Work, girl, Work !" I had to do what I had to do i had to not make compromises for nobody else i had to put me first because I can not take care of you If I was not taken care of For now there is no much I can say but I will be sure to leave you with this 'Dear beautiful people of the universe because we are all indeed beautiful it is not always about how many times you endure it is also not about how secured you are it has nothing to do with how elevated you are it for sure doe not consider if you were less antiquated it is not even about if you were less at hesitation it is better to not assume it has anything to do with reservation Do you now see it or do I have to point the obvious ? 'The scars are just reminders and are past events the scars are now "it was" "has been" "happened when" Holding on to the scars do not solve the problem and I understand how hard it could get it is not about all of that, they do not matter anymore It is about I AM STILL HERE, SO WHAT NEXT

A REFLEX OF MENTAL STRESS

From the I read a big book series...... You are what you think , everything in the universe is resolved into your inward experiences or thoughts and would be mirrored in your outward appearance accordingly. 'You MAKE or MAR' your life with your own thoughts. As you build within by the POWER OF THOUGHT your outward life would be shaped accordinly. 'Every soul is a complex combination of gathered experiences and thoughts and the body is but an improvised vehicle for its manisfestation' 'BELIEVE' - it is natural for our inward thoughts to manifest on the outside and this is where we have voices coming at us with why are there so many good people suffering. The highlighted word at the beginning of the paragraph hangs all our sorrows and joys. The art of belief is not an easy skil to master but it is a necessity to easily glide through. You are not allowed to have the TINIEST bit of doubt. 'SUBMIT to your thought [ Empty your heart and be willing, GO BLANK ], confess that you are now their slave [Say it audibly, it is awkwardly satisfying ] and they are now your unconditional master. By doing so you hereby invest in them a power they do not naturally possess and then you succumb, in reality you do not and you are not succumbing to the MERE CIRCUMSTANCES but to whatever picture your SPHERE has thrown around them. Case scenerio of two men who both lost their money to another mister who defrauded them of their money and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. One went crying, weeping and sulking about it [probably telling everyone about it and gaining only or mostly sympathy ] and the other one goes "I know it will be hard to move past this but i must and maybe just put in extra work to see if i can get that again" and not only says that but proceeds to actually put in work. Now we have two results, a man who has sympathy and a man who is about to recover his cash. The loss of money was a curse to one but he clothed the event with dark thoughts and the other one already figured 'if circumstances had the power to bless or harm then they would bless and harm all men EQUALLY [ now pay attention to actually get this ] but the fact that the same circumstances are good and bad to different souls prove that the good or bad is NOT in the circumstance but only in the MIND that encounters it. When you realize and accept this, you begin to control your thought, DISCIPLINE YOUR THOUGHTS ! Often times, the way we CLOTHE both events and objects with our very own thoughts is the same way we clothe other people and their souls. We cloth them in the robes of our thoughts, for instance 'the liar feels secure in the thought that he is not exactly foolish as to believe that there is such a thing as a strictly truthful person. Drop your questions, thoughts and opinions on the comments or mail me personally to have a conversation about this 'adelewa6@gmail.com . If you found this interesting then follow my blog because it is a very big book and I am opinated and I want to [ gist ] you guys

THE LESSON OF EVIL

I read a book, a giant book and for each sub topic i had something to say..... Everything BAD,NEGATIVE are the shadows of life, I mean there is nobody 'no heart' that has not felt the STING of pain, no mind that has not been 'tossed upon the dark waters of trouble', no eye that has not wept warm/hot tears [ I know how this feels and it hits different ]. There is no household where disease and death has not visited [ and I mean that literally ], upon all this happening the natural thing to happen next is the urge to escape all of this chaos because it is plainly disturbing our comfort. In the bid to escape this AWFUL reality we end up finding or creating a path (pathways) by which we hope to find happiness that would last till forever like the 'drunkard and harlot who find their escape with sensual and euphoric activities, like 'he who seeks fame and luxury as a distraction', like 'a man that FINDS peace in performing RELIGIOUS rituals. "This life no balance" is a popular slang or proverb per say on my end of the world, Nigeria to be a little more precise. It is just simply used to almost explain one of the dire situations of life. In the pursuit for happiness, the lucky who get it are quick to forget the existence of EVIL which is just hanging over our heads like 'a sword ready to fall and crush the soul of those unprotected by knowledge'. [I know some of us do not like reading, there are various ways of which you can get knowledge without necessarily reading, CREATE TIME ! I do my little bit of sharing information by writing and video creating so you can just stay connected to me to know a little extra. The man who said there is power in knowledge was not capping ] 'The child longs to be an adult, the adult sighs at the loss of the felicity of childhood, the poor man chafes under the chain of poverty of which he is bound to and the rich man lives in the fear of poverty'. Most times we tend to tell ourselves that our SOUL has found PEACE in adapting to a certain philosophy, RELIGION or what not but an overpowering temptation proves the RELIGION to be inadequate. The theoritical philosophy is then found to be a USELESS PROP or whatever the ideathe disciple has been devotedly following for years is shattered to fragments at his feet [You know that thing about doubts, that thing about trials and tribulations ? Yeah ! ] and now we have tons of questions all centered at IS THERE NO WAY TO ESCAPE THE CHAOS ? apparently there is a way out [ how did I know ? I studied my dear reader and I put into practice so there is no sugar coating just giving you as it is ]. It's not enough to turn blind eyes, that is why I have a problem with that popular quote "hear no evil, speak no evil, see no evil" [ I am not cancelling the statement, just that every individual has a different interpretation to it ] for the few that feel this quote or rule per say SHIELDS you from evil, allow me break your heart honey, it DOES NOT always work like that. That is where we first miss it. Do not pretend that evil does not exist, do not find it either but if it comes lurking then your first attempt should be understanding the evil. It is not enough to run to God to remove the evil [like magic, kaboom ! ] You proceed to finding out why it is there and what lesson it has for you [That is crazy, but get on with it ] You would be wasting your time sulking because of the chains that bind you. Find out how and why you were bound therefore you must be self conscious, step out of your comfort zone, be out there - examine and understand yourself, begin to learn with humility and patience. Evil is not SOMETHING THAT IS NOT YOU [ You read that right ! ]. It is an experience in your heart and by PATIENTLY examining and rectifying your heart, you will be gradually led into 'the discovery of the origin of the nature of evil. And that would be necessarily followed by its complete eradication. EVIL 'is corrective and remedial, that simply means it is not permanent'. It is birthed by the IGNORANCE of the true nature of things [That is what the REALISTS have been tryting make us understand except the ones that take it extreme of course ] You have questions on this read ? then leave a comment or stay with me in the following articles, I have most questions answered in them [remember I said I read a very big book and I had a lot to say ?] or mail me to have an actual conversation